He doesn't trust me!

chapter 16

What a sucker.What a sucker.What a sucker!
Arrgh, JASON BLOODY GERSON!

Oh my god, you can't imagine what was going on today..
When Sam left college, he went to our house and he was in a bad mood.
Yes, he told me that he had a fight and the reason was that my ex boyfriend Jason bloody Gerson affirmed that Roof wasn't Sam's son, but Jason's.
And the worst was: Sam believes that!
Okay, he had believed it.
But I don't understand how Sam could believe such a rubbish.
In college, Jason meant that it's his baby and that I had just lied to Sam.
I started crying and told him the facts.Sam and I were now one year together and Roof is three weeks old, so then I had to sleep with Jason, although I was going out with Sam.
What an idiot? How could Sam believes this stupid guy and not his own girlfriend??
I was really, really angry and then I understood, Sam would be happy if he's not the father of Sam.When I wouldn't become pregnant after sleeping with him but with Jason.Then he would still have his normal and easy life without any responsibility.
I shouted to Sam and told him that it's not just his life, which is fucked up and that I have a lot of problems, too.
He has still a half chance and can still visit college.
But I have no chance..
Sam kept silent for a long time, then he excused and hugged me.
He told me, that he's very, very proud of being a father and having a son like Roof.
We kissed and I was glad, that we talked it over.

What a complicated and hard day..I will go out for a blow and good bye:)