what will happen in my future?

chapter 5

How could this happen to me?
Sam and I were no couple any longer..
It was his sixteenth birthday and I needed to talk with him.I send him a message that I wait for him in Starbux.As I sat there I became more panicky and frightened.
I was late with my periode and so I was really worried.
I thought about the evening when he took off his condom..
oh my god, how could we done this!
But I didn't want to be in doubt any longer, I wanted to know the truth.
We went into the next chemist's to bought a pregnancy test.But we noticed that we hadn't got enough money for one.
I drove home to get some money, but when I came back Sam wasn't there anymore.


There are two ways my future could go on.
Depending on if I'm pregant or not.
I don't know what I should do.
I'm very late with my periode and I'm really scared, that's for sure!
I'm afraid of the result of the pregnancy test and how my life will develop?
How could Sam leave me alone in this complicated situation?
Do I mean nothing to Sam so that he thinks it isn't important for him if I'm pregnant or not.
He's the father of the baby, that's sure, too.
I can't live without him now, I need him!
What will happen if I'm pregant? Would Sam never want to see me again when it's true?
Would he totally leave me alone with our baby?
And what about my family? Would they support me with my problems or would they're be so disappointed of me and send me away..
How would I finish my school and get a good job later?
I have to pay for the baby.

I want the baby.No question!
But maybe Sam want to have the baby too.Maybe he's looking forward to a little family and although we're very young, it would be okay for him and we would get through this together.
I know that I need Sam, he has to stick to me and has to take responsibility.
He could see how his baby grow up, learn to go and to speak.
And do funny and nice things with his child.
But is it what Sam is dreaming about?
Or does he want to continue his skater life with his friends and his normal youth?

I always dreamed about a little family with a man who loves me, a nice house and a baby.
But not before I'm older, independent and sure what I want.
I want to know how my future will be, but you can't affect what will happen and the future can change all the time..
Sam and I belong together now but how will our story end?